This just did not happen. Not in the thirty-fifth century. There was no need for it. It was barbaric.
No matter how she tugged, the tunic would not close at the
back. She couldn’t bear anything touching her breasts. She couldn’t even bear
touching them herself. And this horrid feeling every morning, and sometimes at
other times of the day. This feeling of fullness, of something wanting to get
out, then her throat filling with the foul-tasting liquid, which forced itself
out of her mouth.
Gross! She thought as she looked at the contents of
the lavatory pan.
It wasn’t supposed to happen anymore, either. But the
diastic monitor had not been able to adjust the water supply this time. The
alarm bell rang – the first one to ring for over two hundred years.
Marijam shuddered as she remembered. She was alone then and
managed to disconnect the machine before it relayed its information to central
control. She started to do her own research.
It was called vomiting. It used to happen when there was
something wrong with the digestive system.
Nobody had things wrong with their digestive systems any more.
She’d found out just the day before. Vomiting also used to
happen often in the first stages of pregnancy in the old days when babies were
gestated in a human womb, not in artificial incubators as they were now.
Surely she had received the Stopes treatment as a child? She
rechecked her medical record. Certainly, it was there. And surely Gabrizan had
done the same?
So how had this happened? She must talk to him. Last night
was the first time she hadn’t seen him since that first time at the Waterfall
when he had kissed the back of her neck, sending ripples of excitement through
her …
Gabrizan had had his interview yesterday for the Northern
Lights Project. He had had to stay overnight at the Nuffield Centre.
Would she hear something soon?
On cue, the dataserve kicked in. There was an important
message for her. She held her breath.
Her father’s picture came on to the screen. He had his
official face on. It was probably being broadcast to everyone, then, and not a
personal message.
Marijam didn’t know whether she liked him most when he was
just being Dad or when he sat there as now, looking wise and dignified and
seeming a whole ten centimetres taller.
‘Well Miss Kennedy,’ her father’s official voice spoke. ‘Good
news. You are invited for interview to join the Northern Lights Project as a
research student. On successful completion of your Part 1, you would be able to
proceed to becoming a full research fellow.’ Frazier Kennedy then grinned. ‘Well
done, sweetie,’ he beamed.
He really looked happy. For a few seconds Marijam felt
pleased as well. Then that uncontrollable wave of nausea came again. She ran
towards the bathroom.
Just in time, she managed to bend her head over the toilet.
The vile orange fluid came up again.
This is really gross.
But really, thought Marijam. This can’t be happening. Why hasn’t the
Stopes programme worked?
She must find Gabrizan. Perhaps he would know how this had
happened. Was it something to do with him?
Pull yourself together, lady, she said to herself as she
made her way back to her room. You’ve got some important business to sort out
here.
The dataserve whirred.
‘Downloading joining instructions for the Northern Lights
Project interview,’ said the tinny metallic voice.
‘Relate,’ said Marijam.
‘Your interview will take place on Level 6, Lab 10 at the
Nuffield Centre,’ she read. ‘Please report 15.30, Day 79, 3500. A transporter pod will be sent
to collect you at 14.00. Please bring
overnight bag. Interview procedures take 24 hours.’
Lab 10! That was where Gabrizan had had to go yesterday.
Perhaps he would be going back there? Perhaps they would be able to work
together. If she was allowed to work at all, of course, now.
What was she going to do? Was she some sort of freak that
the Stopes programme wouldn’t work on? Or Gabrizan? Should she tell her
parents?
She couldn’t. How could she tell that their daughter was a
misfit, a quirk of nature?
At least Gabrizan was due back this evening. How she was
going to tell him she couldn’t begin to think. But it would be good to see him.
She didn’t look too bad in the blue velvet tunic. It was the
best colour for the moment. The only one that didn’t make her look even
greener. But it still wasn’t a pretty sight that greeted her in the mirror. Her
hair seemed to have lost most of its shine. There were dark circles around her
eyes. She had not been able to sleep well for the last two nights. Her face was
white.
What will he think? she asked herself.
Marijam felt dizzy as she made her way up the rungs in the
tube. She was used to the fresh air now, but feeling so ill and worried seemed
to make her unsteady. Even so, it was still a thrill to breathe the natural
atmosphere and taste the delicious green smell. It would be good to see him.
Even if she did have to give him this unbelievable news.
She arrived early. That gave her time to sit and think about
what she should say to Gabrizan when he arrived.
The sound of the Waterfall was soothing somehow. She was so
looking forward to seeing him, despite everything. Everything seemed so much
more alive up on the surface. The running water moved on its own. The water
channels in the caves were driven by motors. It smelt so different, too. She
dangled her hand into the pool that formed at the bottom of the fall. It felt
silkier than her finest tunic. The soft breeze, moved one of the ferns so it
looked as if it was waving to her.
Shoots of green which were coming up through the now much browner earth.
And it was just eight weeks since the poison cloud had lifted. What was it
going to be like when the others came up to the surface in two days’ time? She
was going to have to pretend she was surprised too.
It began to get dark. Marijam shivered. Where was Gabrizan?
It wasn’t like him to be late. She was beginning to get cold. It hadn’t been
this cold before up on the surface. The sun was going down rapidly now. Some
clouds were forming on the horizon - the first ordinary rain clouds since the
poison cloud had disappeared.
Marijam decided to walk a little way up the path which led
from the base of the waterfall to the cliff above. It must have been a natural
path, because it was still easy enough to walk along, even though no-one had
been along it for over 1200 years - apart from when she and Gabrizan had been
up there a few days ago. She just loved the view from up there. She could stare
for hours at the pink and grey rock which was getting a lace-like coating of
green.
By the time she reached the top, though, the sun had gone
all together. The clouds were so thin and scanty it was still possible to see
the night sky. But she couldn’t see land like she had the other time.
Marijam sat and stared at the stars. They were so clear and
bright compared with how they had looked from behind the plastiglass and
further dulled by the poison cloud. Time never seemed to matter to her and
Gabrizan when they were out there.
Only it wasn’t ‘they’ tonight. It was just ‘she’ now.
Marijam shivered again. She pressed the controls on her wristband. 20.30
already. He had never been this late. In fact, he had never been late. Now it
was more than an hour after the time he’d said he would come. Why didn’t he use
the mini compu? Was he so far away that he was out of range? Perhaps being
outside made a difference.
Marijam wasn’t so sure she liked it out here so much now
that she was on her own. It was getting colder and colder. She touched the
button of her compu.
‘Gabrizan Taylor 0051,’ she said, after the tinny voice had
asked whom she wanted to contact.
‘Unavailable,’ squeaked the robotic voice. Not out of range.
Nor occupied. Just not available. His interview was taking longer than they had
expected. Oh she hoped he would get on the Northern Lights Project. And that
she would, too. It would be great to work together.
Except there was just this one little problem. Well, no it
was actually quite big really. Another wave of nausea passed through Marijam.
She knew that this time it was not to do with that strange biological change
that had taken place in her body. Not directly, anyway. It was because she didn’t
think she could face the other changes which were about to happen.
She shivered again. Well, it was obvious she wasn’t going to
see Gabrizan tonight. He just must have got held up at his interview. It was
almost a relief not to have to give out this dreadful news tonight. Even though
she missed seeing him.
Marijam was quite glad to get back inside. It was more
frightening and less of an exciting adventure to go out there alone. She was
feeling tired as well. Perhaps she would sleep better tonight, now.
The lights were on in the communal room of the Kennedy
apartment when she arrived back. Both Frazier and Louish Kennedy were sitting
there in silence. Their faces looked grim.
‘Well, did you see him?’ asked Frazier. Marijam had never
heard him sound so angry.
‘Did he turn up for you?’ he demanded. ‘Because he sure didn’t
turn up for his second interview!’
‘We tried to get you on the mini compu,’ said Louish. ‘Only
we couldn’t get through.’
Marijam wondered whether it had been because she was
outside. But then her compu had communicated with the centre. Perhaps it could
get to the centre but no further…or perhaps they had called just as she was
trying to call Gabrizan.
‘He’s a waste of space,’ hissed Frazier. ‘We’d set up a
really expensive programme for him. No-one else could do what we had in mind
for him.’
Then Marijam realised what her father had just told her. Not
only had Gabrizan not turned up to see her this evening, he had not turned up
for the second part of his interview. He had disappeared. He was gone. She was
on her own now.
The nausea came again. She managed to mumble something about
being tired, and hurried off to her room.
She just made it to the bathroom in time. Now it came as a
relief to throw up the heavy feeling out of her stomach. As if she was giving way
to all the tension that was inside her.
She came back from the bathroom and collapsed on to the bed.
The tears started. She could hear her parents’ muffled voices. She couldn’t
hear what they were saying, but that her father had sounded angry and her mother
concerned. She heard the door open and her mother say, ‘Can’t you see how pale
she looked? That boy has hurt her.’
Marijam closed her eyes. Then there was nothing. Just
blackness. Marijam hoped she might never wake up.